Happy or Sad?

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

Lately dun noe out of the blue..im feeling so sad....haiz..yesterday went back to

sch....didnt manage to come to the morning class becos i was sick but i still

manage to get well enuff for the noon lesson........when i saw mine friends i

suddenly realise..im like nothing much to talk to them..they also nothing much to

talk to mi..i also like no mood to talk..this is definitely not the true mi..im

actually a person who like to talk and crap with friends..but yesterday i m like

different world from mine classmate..and there seem to be some sort of "gap"

between mi and them...........or maybe i shld revert back to las sem "me"..las sem

"me" always pon lesson and stay at home to play games..erm maybe u all tink

tt ..like tt confirm very boring..since i didnt maintain much contact with

classmates and always stay at home..but tt time i tink i dun have so much FAN

NAO.........and quite enjoy the my stay at home as i immersed myself in the games

tt i play..and shows i watch but at times i still felt tt i need some1 to talk to..but i

still manage to cope being by myself only..but this sem..although now i maintain

alot of contact with mine classmate and mine sec sch mates..i still felt something

lacking..im not sure wat issit..but i can say lar im definitely happier in this sem

than las sem..but now...maybe becos im at attachment alone most of the time..and

once im left alone hor..i will be like revert back to the shy shy..quiet..nothing to

talk much person..and it will certainly took mi a long while for mi to beome

comfortable and talk alot..and i had the bad feeling tt..some1 in class dun wan to

talk to mi..tink i offend quite alot of ppls..that's juz mine instinct..but i really had

the strong feeling..hope all these negative feelling will disappear after

exams..sorry lar to write so many sad things again..but my life is juz like

this .................

Saturday, September 25, 2004

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Erm today topic will not be much on today activities ..but i will briefly explain

what i have done today..wake up at 9..then surf some net and had to went back to

NUH for project..everything go quite smoothly..except tt the stupid red cell

washing machine delay mine departure by 30 mins..anyway as long can finish this

longy prac im happy already.. All this while..i had been thinking about alot of

things..for example communication..i find it really hard to communicate with

ppls nowaday..las time in sec sch..talking is really easy and relaxing..i juz talk

wat's come to mind..we talk we joke about anything under the sun..but now

presently..i find talking quite a chore..most often than not i have to tink of wat to

talk 1st..perhaps las time becos i always hang with guys and now is the direct

opp..face mostly gals now..but i dun tink tt is the major reason..NOW im seriously

tinking....could it be im much more sensitive now????..........for example las time

in sec sch i tink i will talk non- stop for 2 hr crapping alot..when i talk i will tink

of alot of factor juding the way the person look(does he/she look bored or wat)

him/her type of response..are we having a 1 sided talking conversation..does i talk

and behave too immaturely....all these will definitely linger around mine head

when im talking..most often than not i will wait for other ppls to initate the

conversation now..perhap im not a very confident person..or issit becos mine

class ppls too passive...all waiting for some1 to initate the conversation..i find

this type of conversation and interacting very tiring

le..seriously speaking abit sick of all these..maybe we are all too different ppls

each with diff hobby?..maybe they dun like talking to mi?..maybe becos we dun c

each other too much so nothing to talk?.....there 's tons and tons of

possibilty............and by the time i figured out all the possibilities i will be brain

dead..AM i really making life too hard for mi? how i wish im a simple person..no

need to tink so much..maybe im too

sensitive to wat ppls tink of mi....HOW I WISH i could go back to secondary

school times when that 's the most orginal and natural mi..maybe i will find out

the answer in the near future....................or shld i seriously considering going to

some classes for effective communication or issit time for mi to change my

personality..hope i can get some guidance soon................................

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

Today is such a fine day tt i overslept........wake up at 7am..whoa how the hell can i get

to pasir ris polyclinic without being late..so as a result.....i was late for 1 hr..but luckily

the staff there didnt reproach mi..erm i feel so bad and ashamed..today quite a bad

day..dun noe whether i cannot concentrate or im feeling tired..missed a couple of

veins..but the staff there keep asking mi to try more to gain more experience ..i felt

so.....welcomed and comfortable there......today 1st time taking baby blood..hah not

very enjoyable le hearing the baby orr..ei......orr ei...haha pretty cruel rite..went to

tampines mall for lunch..i really tink hor..tampines mall is the best shopping mall in

singapore..excluding shopping centre in orchard lar...tampine mall had alot of

shop..levi..breadtalk..fish and co..lots lots more..........too bad i only had like 2o mins

to shop there hehe..and hor as a result went back to the lab late at 2.30pm..and

mostly do bloodtaking..and as usual leave home at 4.30..today i take another route

home..instead of taking "2h" 67 ..i take 969 to woodland terminal then take 187

home..pretty troublesome rite..but well take shorter time mah..

The feeling at pasir ris so far had been great........but pretty contradicting..i like the

idea of wandering around the new area..exploring each part of it..can go to tampines

mall ahh..white sand and simei...so much freedom..but on the other hand hope

there's another gd friend with mi to enjoy the exploring ..which shld be pretty exciting

hehe..well i gotta go to sleep now..or else tomolo be late again........

Sunday, September 19, 2004

It had been a few days since i wrote my last blog msg..erm i shall summarise wat i

have done for the last 3 days..on friday..i was posted to pasir ris polyclinic for the

1st time..i went out at 6am..take 1 bus to woodland terminal...take another bus to

tampines terminal..then take mrt to pasir ris to pasir ris terminal then take

another bus and finally reached the polyclinic..In the end i reached there at 8.15

(LATE!).........the lab was located in the third storey...my 1st impression..was the

NHG was bigger than jurong polyclinic..very pleasant looking and new..at tt time

there are quite a number of patients in the lab already..i report to the

supervisor..then asked to do some bloodtaking and ECG.....during lunch time i

went downstair to the neighbourhood to eat..actually i wan to buy some food and

bring back to the lab to eat..in the end i was locked out and have to sit outside the

lab....(look stupid lor and the place was dark).......afternoon time..not many

patients..and the lab staff took time to teach mi new stuff...actually a lot of things

are already learnt in SGH..ohh well..haha......then i make my way home..las time

my friend told mi neber to take 67 from tampines to cck..but i neber believe..now i

do..i nearly puke lor...the whole ride took about 2hr..and the glass window was

dot tainted..so cannot even c outside clearly..feel quite sick..so mine whole day

bus journey took about 4 hrs..hahaha............

On SAT..nothing worth mentioning..except i went to my father shop to help

out..and GOT a new converse bag..really nice looking..not too big or small..but the

drawback was its quite girly lor..hehe..

on SUNDAY......haiz..actually we had a grp of 5 sunday sentosa trip..but sat 1 of

them suddenly not going..then suddenly had a bad feeling then another will not

be going..then on sunday itself..i prepare myself everything for the trip(ready to

set off le)..then unfortunately...received the bad news that she was unwell to

go..weep!...so now left only 1 gal 2 guy...in the end the gal also didnt go..then the

other guy(organiser) ask mi whether i still wan to go..erm in the end i still

accompany him becos he need to buy something..then sitting in the bus 188 to

haberfront...a grp of gals talking happily on wat they going to do in sentosa..then i

was like...tink u noe how i feel............in the end 2 of us had a really nice chat

together when we taking our breakfast at mac...then we went shopping lor...about

2 hrs also...and reached home at 2.50 ..definitely much earlier than wat i

expect...erm..ya i admit initally i was so so disappointed .....and sad..that all

these happen..but after the chat and shopping ..i feel much much better..but a bit

of disappointment was still unavoidable..the other guy feel much worse lor..since

he is the organiser and this is the worst thing that can happen to an outing

trip..nvm lar..1st time going out and having a nice talk with him make us feel

more closer lor..since for the past 1 yr..neber really sit down and have a close chat

with him..............and i understand his disappointment........oh well i comfort

myself there always a next time..i hope tomolo can hear some rumour (gd news )

on..no need to go back to pasir ris polyclinic for attachment..although the staff

there nice to mi but the long distance taking a toll on mi..and hope to have a nice

rest on wed..so..wish mi gd luck tomolo(will noe whether rumour true or not


Wednesday, September 15, 2004

1 apple a day keep the docter away..hehe y am i singing this song..erm maybe too

stressed ba..today juz have my retest...erm not too hard..not too easy..hehe actually i

expect myself to walk out of the rm straight away after i have seen the paper becos i

didnt study much for my retest..but i juz wan to give myself a chance lor..at least i

try..or else i tink i will regret it..then luckily after retest..ask some of my friends to

come to my house to watch shows...we meet at lot 1 at 12..then took 45 mins to

choose the show we wan lor..hehe so long rite..haiz tink we too shuai bian abit..you

rou gua duan(meaning very indecisive)..........we also order pizza for lunch..but the

bad thing is when we reached the busstop..it rain heavily..AHHH...mine hair got put

hair lotion lor..so disgusting..luckily the rain not so heavy by then..oh well....then we

watch 1st show BIG FISH..erm quite nice lar..abit artistic..haha but for the near the

las part i felt asleep for 5 mins..but cannot blame mi le..juz finish lunch..weather so

cosy and cool..haha..tt 5 mins parts not so imp 1..erm then we immdiately watched

the next show called JIANG HU..frankly speaking if tt show dun have andy lau..haha

tt show will not be so gd....the show..erm..boring..lame..and quite expected lar..but

still alrite lar..but well this type of show always got the same ending 1...so after the 2

shows..we have our post-show talk lor..haha cos we dun understand the whole story

jiang hu until the end..haha maybe i wasnt concentrating..at about 6.45pm we went

to meet 1 more friend at lot 1 for dinner..and i reached home at about 8.30pm..erm it

had been a long time since friends had come to my house..hope they find my house

ok and presentable lar..as long as they are happy in my house..i will be comforted and

happy also..erm but 1 of my friends say mine house very hongkong type..erm really

meh..haha am i supposed to laugh or CRY!!!!.........ahaha...ok nowaday..i tink i

donate a lot of time to NUH SGH and later polyclinic..tt i discover i have very little

time for myself le..as in..do things alone ..like read magazine on a rocking

chair..playing games..watching tv programme..erm..but overall it is still ok ba..cos the

feeling of being with friends is always better than being alone..hope tomolo i will have

a wonderful final day at SGH..i will miss them!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, September 11, 2004

Hey im back every1..missed mi?? hehe..i noe i havent update for 3 days

already..that's not my plan ok(hope to update everyday) last 3 days have been so

busy for mi lor..so today blog will be kinda long becos..i will combine my las 3 days

experience..hehe ..scared of mine long assay?...dun read lor..! Let start with

thursday..whoa that's areally long tiring day for mi..first i wake up at 5.40am so tt i

will not be late for mine SGH attachment..then later during the day..i made alot of

mistakes(in the morning) tt cause chaos in the lab lor(label wrong tube lor)..whoa..i

kena stunted also..feel so bad..and useless..then in the afternoon kinda ok lar..(i will

learn my mistake ok)...then after dismissal at 4.30..i got to rush back to NUH for

mine project practical..reach NUH at 7 pm..have to do the practical everything myself

(partner injured ..wat can i do)..somemore 1st time do prac..everything is hard at first

lor..luckily staff like teh kock and yiling help mi out or else..hehe no need to go home

le..at first hope to get back home by 10pm at most..but AT 10.45pm IM STILL IN

NUH LOR..whoa..ya so at about 10.45 i made myself out of the hosp lor..kinda

adventurous for mi le(love scary atmosphere)..hehe so late still in hospital..dun

really have the opportunity to c this place at nite lor..(the previous latest time tt i

leave nuh is 6 plus lor)...then when i reach the busstop..i saw my bus sped off..past

mi..shit..in the end have to change bus 2 times to reach home at about..11.45..and by

the time i bath and prepare everything..its already 1am..then i GOT TO WAKE UP AT

5.40am TOMOLO!!!!!...

whoa so tiring..the next day friday..mine day in SGH quite smooth..no more trouble

created..hehe..but the lunch was kinda.."suspicious"..u got c ppls warm up meesiam

in the microwave..whoa..but i no choice nothing else to eat..the only gd place about tt

canteen is its airconditioned..haha..in the noon i wait patiently until 4.30pm..later

going out with friends lor(so long time neber go out)im actually quite happy tt

day..erm..y ahh..maybe i got chance to go to esplanade again ba..and talk cork with

friends..somemore its had been such a tiring week ..now finally got chance to

enjoy..so at 5.30pm meet friends then go suntec walk walk..after tt we made our way

to marina square..whoa becos of the renovation..we have to make a

detour..sian..finally reach marina square bk to have our dinner at 7.20pm..quickly

have our dinner..then made our way to the esplanade..by then it was 8pm already..so

finally we reached our destination..i sit down at 1 corner with 1 friends..with the other

3 friend watching band performance them..whoa looking at the black black sea..really

made me feel calm and forget about a lot of things..at about 9pm the whole grp finally

settled down..and we have a 45 mins talk cork session..y so short ahh?...BECOS WE

STILL HAVE LECTURE TOMOLO AT 9..sad rite..hehe..then we take mrt

home..together..i reach home at 11.30..and sleep at 12.30..sian..tomolo still kinda

wake up at 6.30am..really need some sleep badly..

On sat, our lecture last for 2 and a half hrs..like the lecturer..she teach very well..later

having lunch with mine friend in NUS..and went to visit his lab attachment..kinda

fun compared to mine project ...weep!..at about 2 pm..made mine way home..and

sleep the moment i reached home..for about 3 hrs.. feel so much refreshed now..that

y i can write such a long assay tonite hehe..erm..this week and next week will be

kinda busy..i got project draft to write..retest next wed..test in SGH next

wednesday..and after all these exam also reaching soon..i wish i got more time to go

out..suddenly feel so lonely..haiz..all the stupid attachment..remind mi of sec sch life

again..although the sec sch system more rigid..but i got more time to be with mine

frined..unlike now..so many attachment..and u are alone most of the

time..somemore i dun have any cca..kinda regret alot of things..oh well..hope all

these negative feel disappear soon..after exam ..sorry to make the assay so long

again..hope to get more encouragement from friends..

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

Today is tue time..which mean i have to go back to SOC for attachment..initally

thought that i will be in lab attachment(i hate lab work) but..due to some unknown

reason im back at the PAT room(blood-drawing room)....but feel abit unhappy about

it...tink fiona is so biased lor..but today everything went quite smoothly lor..draw alot

of patient blood..but still got some fail lar(nothing is perfect!).........also listen to some

SP story..u all wan to hear? ..hehe..quite scary le..for those with weak heart..pls STOP

READING HERE..and close the explorer..ok..it happen in 2002..1 of the staff name

person B was attending a course lesson in SP..so 1 day...during the break time..B was

at the rooftop..and saw a gal lying on a wide ledge..chatting with handphone..and it

was drizzling..lor..so in this situation u confirm will feel that this is weird rite..next B

saw another person..asking the gal wat was she doing there..the gal juz..look at

her..and roll down..and fell to her death(from rooftop).....next morning...the news

was all over the Singapore..it was pretty scary esp if u experience it urself..so to all

ppls who saw those joss stick and offering in some part of SP..u shld now noe y now..

the reason for her death is stilll unknown..but this is really pitiful..and show us tt life

is juz so vulnerable and unpredictable..so if u all wan to do anything u like GO FOR

IT...today received a bad news..i have to go back to FREAKING PASIR RIS

POLYCLINIC for the next next wed onwards..for GOD sake..i LIVE IN CHOA CHU

KANG>>haiz..so sad..weep!..but i have to accept it lar..all things are

predestinated!...........today at least got some story to tell u all..haha at least not so

bored rite?...ok lar..i gotta tink wat i wan to do tomolo afternoon..

Monday, September 06, 2004

Hope my life will be as colourful and beatiful as this 1 Posted by Hello

Saturday, September 04, 2004

BEST NBA PLAYER Posted by Hello

UNSTOPPABLE Posted by Hello

Do we look happy together? Posted by Hello

Haben been updating for a few days...erm..today is sat... a day where most ppls will

be going out..except mi here blogging...erm..today..whole day went to my father shop

to help out..haha abit bored as usual..but i dun noe y lately i no mood for anything

le..mine xbox still covered with cobweb as usual..email flooded..tv programme flip

here and there..and most of mine friends either busily shopping..searching for tour

agencies....in cca......or play basketball..haiz im really bored..maybe mine circle of

friends..are too small..but frankly speaking im also hard to interact with ...wat to

do..still havent really find friends of my type(like playing pool and loitering around in

shopping mall) ...mine sec sch friends like to play basketball..but i no mood..so as

time goes by nothing to talk about..even though relationship still close..mine sec sch

npcc friends..erm..neber go out with them like ages..maybe in future got time then go

out lor ba ...if i didnt c my friend for very long time..sometime i will feel shy le..haha

liike las time when i saw my exclassmate (quite gd friend) with his gf..whoa..i nearly

ran away..haha..erm..whu else..other either not very close or..they still in ns..that

give mi another reason to hate ns lor..haha rob mi of mine friends..somemore..guys

grp as compared to gals..are not so united..haha..but it is understandable..cos they

dun do things together often like gals go shopping so often and guys are more solo

minded..haiz whu ask mi have so few friends of the opposite sex..dun noe

whether..im too low profiled or..haha..mine sec sch class gals really cmi lor..at least

my poly class gals..still ok lar..some quite nice lar..but i still can't feel the close

bond..lor..maybe i wasnt with them for very long time ba..haiz..how i wish i can find a

phone partner...rite now..i really cant find 1...im scared tt either they are not free...or

they actually only yingchou lor..i scared of these kind of things..maybe tt y im not so

friendly ba..taurus heart are very weak lor..more breakable than glasses..maybe have

to pin mine "buddy" hope on NS lor..but hor..i wish to get into police acdemy instead

of Pulua tekong..haha..that is mine wish for next yr birthday..dun ask mi y!!....erm i

really shld find some free activities for myself..cos friends cannnot be always be there

all the time for u..every1 have a lonely moment.......so now i have to rack mine

brain..and tink hard ..lor on the topic :wat to do during free time"...erm i keep tinking

of the damned gd past..y muz i have such gd memories..of past thing like..playing lan

games with mine sec sch friend....playing basketball after sch...going to chalet..going

for vacation in china or thailand...playing daidee during olevel study period..(haha we

so lame rite)...watching nba show with mine friend..going to gym..sec4 npcc NCO

camp where we have nite hiking followed by bbq plus TCS(talking cork

session)...watching movie at nite..(going home late is a nice feeling)......walking along

the singpore river as we talk..throughout the nite..going to marina bay for

steamboat..whoa..so many gd memories..all alive inside mine brain....but well..every

gd things will come to an end..all ur eyes muz be quite tired..after reading until here

hehe..sorry listening to mine whining assay..shld be quite bored to most of u..hope

mine msg box will be more alive..ba..all ur comments are greatly appreciated..

* about.

Email : wykheong@singnet.com.sg
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Zodiac Sign:Taurus

// --> BouT mOi
Tis b|og be|ongz to YeowKheong or better known as Ah Kheong. He was born on the 25th of April 1985. Currently studying Biomedical Science in NP. dun |ike to fee| insecure bout situationz and hate loneliness. HE may seem complicated yet simple with happy-go-lucky attitude in |ife

* blog archieve

August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004

- Diana World
- YingHua's Paradise
- Sharon Home
- MingFen XiaoTianDI
- JiaQian Battlefield
- LiHua's WonderPage
- Adela memory page
- FIFI Homeland

* fave links

- www.nba.com
- www.teamxbox.com
- www.goggle.com

* Things i like

- playing pool
- Crapping with friends at the coffeebean
- Watching movie( Gross and scary 1 esp)
- Watching Romance show
- Playing mine xbox
- Food that are not too spicy
- Shopping( whu say guys dun like shopping)
- Touring around the world
- Watching nba
- Playing basketball
- Watching FearFactor

* Things or people i hate

- Hypocrite
- Materialistic Gal
- Guys who flirt too much)
- Cockroach
- Backstabber

* Favourite Game

-Ninga Gaiden(xbox)
-King Of Fighter series
-Any scary game(aka Resident Evil)
-Any Cute Game(aka crash bandicoot..and sonic

* Favourite Singer

-Jay Chou
-Backstreet Boy

* Taurus traits

-Patient and reliable
-Warmhearted and loving
-Persistent and determined
-Placid and security loving)

* Taurus Dark Side(Dun be afraid!)

-Jealous and possessive
-Resentful and inflexible
-Self-indulgent and greedy

* Things that Taurus like

-Being Attracted
-Things Natural
-Time to Ponder
-Comfort and Pleasure

* Things that Taurus deslike

-Being pushed too hard
-Synthetic or "man made" things
-Being rushed
-Being indoors

* More things about Taurus

-The color of choice for Taurus is PINK
-Taurus Starstone is the EMERALD

* About Taurus

-The Taurean's characteristics are solidity, practicality, extreme determination and strength of will - no one will ever drive them, but they will willingly and loyally follow a leader they trust. They are stable, balanced, conservative good, law-abiding citizens and lovers of peace, possessing all the best qualities of the bourgeoisie. As they have a sense of material values and physical possessions, respect for property and a horror of falling into debt, they will do everything in their power to maintain the security of the status quo and be somewhat hostile to change. Mentally, they are keen-witted and practical more often than intellectual, but apt to become fixed in their opinions through their preference for following accepted and reliable patterns of experience. Their character is generally dependable, steadfast, prudent, just, firm and unshaken in the face of difficulties. Their vices arise from their virtues, going to extremes on occasion,such as sometimes being too slavish to the conventions they admire. On rare occasions a Taurean may be obstinately and exasperatingly self-righteous, unoriginal, rigid, ultraconservative, argumentative, querulous bores, stuck in a self-centered rut. They may develop a brooding resentment through nursing a series of injuries received and, whether their characters are positive or negative, they need someone to stroke their egos with a frequent, "Well Done!" Most Taureans are not this extreme though. They are faithful and generous friends with a great capacity for affection, but rarely make friends with anyone outside their social rank, to which they are ordinarily excessively faithful. In the main, they are gentle, even tempered, good natured, modest and slow to anger, disliking quarreling and avoiding ill-feeling. If they are provoked, however, they can explode into violent outbursts of ferocious anger in which they seem to lose all self-control. Equally unexpected are their occasional sallies into humor and exhibitions of fun. Although their physical appearance may belie it, they have a strong aesthetic taste, enjoying art, for which they may have a talent, beauty (recoiling from anything sordid or ugly) and music. They may have a strong, sometimes unconventional, religious faith. Allied to their taste for all things beautiful is a love for the good things of life pleasure, comfort, luxury and good food and wine and they may have to resist the temptation to over indulgence, leading to drunkenness, gross sensuality, and covetousness. In their work, Taureans are industrious and good craftspeople, and are not afraid of getting their hands dirty. They are reliable, practical, methodical and ambitious, within a framework of obedience to superiors. They are at their best in routine positions of trust and responsibility, where there is little need of urgency and even less risk of change, and a pension at the end. Yet they are creative and good founders of enterprises where the rewards of their productiveness come from their own work and not that of others. They can flourish in many different trades and professions: banking, architecture, building, almost any form of bureaucracy, auctioneering, farming, medicine, chemistry, industry Taureans make good managers and foremen surveying, insurance, education and, perhaps surprisingly, music and sculpture. They make an ideal trustee or guardian, and can attain eminence as a chef. Some Taureans are gifted enough in singing to become opera stars or to excel in more popular types of music. They are more than averagely amorous and sensually self-conscious, but sexually straightforward and not given to experiment. They make constant, faithful, home loving spouses and thoughtful, kindly parents, demanding too much of neither their spouses nor children. They can be over possessive and may sometimes play the game of engineering family roles for the pleasure of making up the quarrel. If anyone offends their amour proper they can be a determined enemy, though magnanimous in forgiveness if their opponent makes an effort to meet them halfway. No other sign in the zodiac is closer to earth then Taurus. The main objective in leading a Taurean life is primarily (though not entirely) to maintain stability and physical concerns. Your inner spiritual sense longs for earthly harmony and wholesomeness. When you fully understand this, and work toward this end, you will no longer need to blindly reassure yourself with external possessions and comforts. A realization that finding this inner peace will cause all of the above mentioned positive things will overtake you and your life will be very full. Ultimately the Taurean needs to discover their truest, deepest and highest values. When they know what is truly valuable, they are no longer chained to people and to things that have to do with lesser values. The greatest indication of value to a Taurean is beauty, which cannot be owned, only appreciated.
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